The 6k run was a frantic, chaotic blur, my feet pounding the pavement with a desperate, angry rhythm that matched the turmoil in my own head.

Gary's words, delivered with a calm, business-like finality that had made them all the more devastating, echoed in my mind, a relentless, mocking refrain. The senior team manager wants him. He wants him training with the first team.

Eze. Of course, it was Eze. It was always going to be Eze. He was too good, too bright, a talent so prodigious that it was impossible for him to remain a secret for long.

I had known this day was coming. I had prepared myself for it. But the reality of it, the cold, hard finality of it, was a blow I was utterly unprepared for. The system, my silent, ever-present co-pilot, was a cacophony of conflicting data streams in my mind.

On the one hand, it showed Eze's CA, a shimmering, vibrant 115 that was already far above the average for our league, a clear, objective confirmation of his readiness for a higher level.

But on the other hand, it showed a detailed, long-term development projection, a complex algorithm of physical maturation, tactical understanding, and mental resilience that was flashing a series of bright, urgent warning signs.

"Eze Development Path: Optimal with U18s. Senior Team Training Environment: High risk of physical overload, potential for developmental stagnation."

The system was telling me, in its cold, impartial language, that throwing him into the senior team now, into a world of grown men playing for their mortgages, would be a catastrophic mistake.

It would be like taking a delicate, meticulously crafted watch and smashing it with a hammer. He wasn't ready. Not for the physicality, not for the pressure, not for the cynical, soul-crushing reality of a Premier League relegation battle. But how could I explain that to Gary?

How could I, a 27-year-old nobody with almost three months of professional managerial experience, tell a man who had been in the game for thirty years that he was wrong?

How could I tell Eberechi Eze, a kid who had been rejected four times, a kid who had been told his entire life that he wasn't good enough, that he should turn down the opportunity of a lifetime?

It was an impossible choice, a moral and professional tightrope walk with a thousand-foot drop on either side. And I was the one who had to make it.

The meeting with Gary took place in his office, a sterile, impersonal space that smelled of stale coffee and quiet desperation. He sat behind his large, imposing desk, a mountain of paperwork in front of him, his face a mask of weary resignation.

He had the look of a man who was fighting a war on a thousand different fronts and losing on all of them. The senior team was struggling, the owner was demanding results, and the fans were growing restless.

He didn't have time for the sentimental, idealistic notions of a rookie youth team manager. He needed solutions. And right now, Eberechi Eze looked like a solution. "The senior team needs creativity, Danny," he said, his voice flat, devoid of any emotion.

"We're not creating chances. We're not scoring goals. The manager watched the Reading game. He saw what Eze did. He thinks he can make a difference." An internal, primal scream of panic rose in my throat. I need him. We can't win without him. He's the heart of my team.

But I swallowed it down, forcing myself to remain calm, to present a logical, rational argument that wasn't tainted by my own selfish desperation.

"He's not ready, Gary," I said, my voice steady, my hands clasped tightly in my lap to stop them from shaking. "Physically, he's not ready. He's still developing. The physicality of the Premier League… it'll break him."

I was using the system's data, translating its cold, hard numbers into a language that Gary would understand, the language of player welfare, of long-term asset management.

"He needs another six months, maybe a year, of consistent games at this level. He needs to build up his core strength, his resilience. If we throw him in now, we risk ruining him. Not just for us, but for his entire career."

Gary listened, his expression unreadable. For a moment, I thought I had gotten through to him. I thought he saw the logic, the sense in what I was saying. But then he sighed, a long, weary exhalation of a man who had heard it all before.

"That's not your call, Danny," he said, his voice gentle but firm, the words a velvet hammer that shattered my fragile hope. "And it's not mine. It's the player's. We'll offer him the opportunity. It's up to him to decide if he wants to take it."

And in that moment, I understood the true, brutal nature of the game I was in. I didn't own these players. I was just a temporary custodian, a caretaker tasked with polishing them up before they were sold off to the highest bidder.

My dream of building a dynasty, of creating a team that would grow and evolve together and challenge the U18 title, was just that. A dream. A naive, childish fantasy that had no place in the cold, hard reality of professional football.

The walk from Gary's office to the players' lounge, where I knew Eze would be, was the longest walk of my life. Every step was a fresh wave of guilt, of self-loathing, of a profound, soul-crushing sense of failure.

I was about to become the very thing I had always despised: a manager who put the needs of the club above the needs of the player. I was about to present a false choice to a kid who trusted me, a choice between his lifelong dream and his long-term future, knowing that he was almost certain to choose the former.

I found him sitting on a sofa, a controller in his hands, locked in a fierce, laughing battle of FIFA with Semenyo. He looked so young, so carefree, so blissfully unaware of the storm that was about to break over his head.

My heart ached with a paternal, protective love so fierce it almost took my breath away. I didn't want to do this. I didn't want to be the one to shatter his innocence, to force him to make a choice that no eighteen-year-old should have to make.

But I had no choice. The game demanded it. I asked him if we could talk, and the smile instantly vanished from his face, replaced by a look of wide-eyed, anxious concern. We walked out onto the empty training pitch, the silence between us thick with unspoken questions.

I didn't beat around the bush. I just told him, the words feeling like stones in my mouth. "The senior team wants you, Eze. They want you to start training with them."

His reaction was a complex, contradictory explosion of emotions. First, there was a flash of pure, unadulterated joy, a dazzling, thousand-watt smile that lit up his entire face. This was it. The moment he had been working for his entire life.

The validation he had been so cruelly denied by four other clubs. And then, just as quickly, the joy was replaced by a shadow of guilt, of a dawning, horrified understanding of what this meant for the U18s, for the team we were building, for me. His eyes met mine, and in their depths, I saw a silent, desperate plea.

"What do you think I should do, boss?"

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